Friday, December 2, 2011

So the frustration never end.

So we went to Brendan's Dr. appt today and he has failed the steroid therapy. Which means they had no effect on his seizures. So we are now looking at the surgery eval. which we have been dreading and praying we wouldn't have to go this far. I am having so many emotions and don't know what to do or how to feel. The Dr. keeps telling me its just an evaluation to see if he is a candidate for surgery and it doesn't mean we have to have surgery. Well that does not comfort me at all! I am trying so hard to stay positive but just not feeling it this week. I know that everything happens for a reason but it is hard to watch it and not know why. Trying to keep faith is really hard but I know I can do it. It doesn't mean it is going to be easy or that I have to like it because I really don't! This was not in my 10 year plan or even 5. hehe Thanks for good friends and family we really need your love and prayers and we can feel them and are so appreciative of them. I have recently been following this amazing woman's blog about her trials and challenge's. It is so amazing and Stephanie Nielson is so uplifting. If you get a chance go to I will warn you, you will spend lots of time reading her stories and tears will stream down your face. A very very inspirational site and if you have any doubts about our religion (church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints)or any interests I would highly recommend you check it out. I hope someday I can be where she is at religiously and am able to share the gospel and be an example like Stephanie. I love this message